Info : time is in 24h format, date is in DD/MM/YYYY, and english isn't my native langage, so
forgive me for errors...
15/12/2024 - 02:43
Hey, wassup guys. I just created this site, after wanting to do so for a while. Didn't really knew what I wanted to
put in, but here we go. I mean, initially, I was thinking about doing a 'normal' neocity with my presentation,
hobby, etc... But turns out this going to be my brain / feeling drop. I don't know, but writing things down online
help me a lot with feeling down for some reason.
Currently its nearly 3am, stopped playing fortnite with friends, was super fun, we even met a dude and play private
creatives games with him (s/o Abdel).
Anyway, the initial thing that maked me want to turn this site into a brain-dump is a feeling i'm having and had for
a bit. The feeling of loneliness, in term of love relationship. It's coming back in force this evening, so here we
are... The reason of why its coming back is simple : I re-installed Instagram... I had it deleted for a bit, since
it wasnt REALLY useful for me, and only led me to watching reels for hours. But recently, I had to send vocals for
some reason, wich leaded me to reinstall the app. Unfortunately, I started to watch reels again, wich contained
videos of teenagers like me, with their girlfriend. These vids lead me to think like 'damn, I wished I had a girl
like that too' and bam, loneliness... The only SMALL problem is that I didn't had a real crush on a girl since like
a whole year. I know it will come one day, but still. I don't know about you, but for me, having a crush on a girl
give me a sort of 'goal'. This 'goal' will then make me try to do my best in kinda everything (for seducting the
girl ig) and give me a lot of motivation, wich is cool. But since a year, nah, nothing bro. The fact that I'm in a
quite small school dont help, and me being a big nerd don't do either lol.
I think I said everyting I wanted to do. I really help to write this down, and knowing that I may re-read that in a
long time is kinda cool tbh.
Anyway, time for me to sleep, its nearly 3am, and I have some work to do tomorrow for last week of school before
christmas holiday (yay). Whoever you are, whatever time it is and wherever you're reading this, have a good day /
night, and be kind to other people :)